Its 2011 already. I don;y know why i got this feeling that we no longer are as close as before.. During the NEW YEAR eve, darling say he is going to his frens house to count down. and he did not bring me go. So i was very sad. but never mind. I let him go..after that when he reach his frens house, he said to me that his frens to go clubbing.. than he nev tell me whr n wat time going back.. Actually I dun like my bf to go club wan.. I had a quarrel with darling.. When its 12am, we should be counting down. But he was late to call me n count down together with him.. In the end i count down my self n watch the firewords on the tv. Im so disappointed. coz this time i can celebrate him.. And he told me saying that we this year nev, we got next year all... I cry for that nite.. hopping he can go home nw. But he did not. In the end, I slpt at 3am in the morning coz of him.. I msg him saying tat he can go enjoy all and go find a better gal. but in my heart, I dun mean all this...

In the morning, I switch on my phone and did not saw his msg.. so I went back to slp.. when i woke up at 11++, i saw his msg saying tat wat i said to him ytd is correct, he should not hurt me if he cant do wat he had promised me.. And he is willing to let me find other guy... After tat i ask him are we considered break?? He did not reply me... I force him to say out wat he wanna say... And he said out. he ask me to find someone better.... at tat very monent, I found out tat I cant do without him by my side.. coz He is my good fren, good bf n good partner... I really cant do without him by my side... He kept ask me to find someone better and rmb to switch on my phone.. I told him i would not switch on my phone again... In the end, I did not wan to break anymore.. I cried on the phone when i talk to him... and few hours later, we met... we went to watch movie...

When i met him i did not talk to him for the whole day... I really felt very sad..... finally, I when i feel like talking to him, i ask him for his hp.. He pass to me.. and i saw him msg munting... saying... he doze off..all that and wat is she doing... I felt so upset.... y mus she msg my bf for??? He told me tat she wanna noe is there any match tonite... i was wondering.... y got so many guys, y mus ask my bf for wat... tears feel lik dropping down when im on the bus with darling.... but luckily it did not went down... In the end, he promised me not to msg her again.. which i duno will it happen again not....

we met up again on sun... this time, i felt so happy talking n going shopping with him... I really felt super happy... and even bought couple shirt together... But today, like a bit different... everytime when i call him, he will pick up the phone... I was waiting for him to call back he did not too.. he jus tell me tat he is waiting for me to reply him... last time he wun be lik this wan.. if i nev reply him, he will msg again but now, he wun... i felt so upsad... really very sad... i really duno we can last for long anot...

hopfully we can last for long... really dun like e feeling now.. hated it so much....